Tuesday, January 26, 2010


I have had lots more (than usual) to do lately, and lots to contemplate as Phill's reserve unit gets their list soon of soldiers deploying to Afghanistan this year (woke up with my stomach in knots every morning the last few days, wondering if he will be going this time), so it follows that I have had some darker, heavier moments the last few days. Several times I simply shut down--or broke down. But through this somewhat rocky couple of weeks, I have been humbled to see the hand of the Lord in my life--through other people. One in particular, my dear friend Sarah, has been quietly sustaining me through these last few days that have really tested just how much I can do and how much faith I can develop (I'm getting there...slowly but surely). I want her to know how grateful I am that she allows herself to be directed towards those who need her strong spirit. I definitely do.

My beloved sisters and friends have surprised me with perfectly-timed phone calls or emailed words of encouragement or good humor, and have made daily life sweeter.

My precious children have behaved uncommonly well, and have gone the extra mile to do their part when there is lots to be done.

My willing husband laid his hands on my head last night to offer me words of comfort from our father in heaven, and soothed my troubled soul.

I do know that if Phill has to be deployed this time, I will not be lacking a strong support system. I am surrounded on every side.

Last, a quote from President Spencer W. Kimball--"God does notice us, and he watches over us. But it is usually through another person that he meets our needs. Therefore, it is vital that we serve each other."

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The Leishman's said...

Rae, I want you to know that you inspire Me to be a better person. I love reading your posts, and learning from you. You ARE strong.. I am here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on or simply a friend to smile with. Please call anytime:) Love ya!

Cynthia said...

Yes, I agree with the last comment, you truly are inspiring! And it saddens me that we're moving, and that we didn't kindle a friendship as much as I would've liked to. But I hope we can stay in touch, because I feel like we are (or could be) what Anne of Green Gables calls, "kindred spirits" Take care!

Sarah said...

Mer, come on down! The more minds to chatter with, the better!

Rae, love ya so much! It is amazing how we just know when to be there for each other. You have helped me so many times, in so many ways. I look forward to all the times to come!

Jenny said...

You never cease to amaze me!! What a strong person you are.

midRae said...

No clue if anything I have to say would add to the wonderful comments that have been left. I do want you to know that what you wrote in your post reminded me that I am not alone when I have a down day. I should have called you this past weekend, I was visiting StG. Rae, thank you so much for being such an inspiration to me.

leslie the licorice stick lady said...

God bless you sweetheart.

Kelly said...

Your post made me remember the dream I had last night. I dreamed that you and Phill were alone together in a room and you were glowing with happiness. You were so happy that you floated and danced as you moved around Phill. You were beyond beautiful.

It was a good dream. :)

I think I must miss you. :(

Lara said...

Sending hugs and love your way! You are so strong, and that makes me happy that you know how much of a support system you have around you.

Priesthood blessings are the best. I had to ask for one myself this last week as I face my own difficulties. Nothing better than the peace and comfort those words straight from heaven can give.

My Family said...

I am keeping my fingers crossed that he doesn't have to go. You amaze me, I can barely handle it when Cody leaves for the weekend.
Keep us updated, we love you guys :)
(I am stealing that quote if you don't mind.....I love it!!)

Shayanne Snodgress said...

I love you and I'm so sorry that your dealing with all of that, but I'm glad that God is constantly keeping you in mind during this time. If there is anything I can do, do tell me. love you

kate said...

I LOVE LOVE LOVE that quote by Pres. Kimball. I was looking for that last week when I had to speak in church. Hang in there, wish I could do something to make it easier. We are all praying for you.