It is with heavy heart, my fellow Americans, that I address you with this news:
We're moving to Saint George. [post-update: IN JUNE OR JULY]
Okay, okay, my heart isn't that heavy, but I am a little sad. Okay, really sad. I feel like I just hit my stride! A little late, but still....I really love Cedar City, and I'm really loving my friends here, and I just got two more photography jobs, and I've been working out regularly at the gym, and I love my church calling, and and and.....
And the horrid gas prices are just not working for us. $3.59 a gallon and still climbing? Do you KNOW how much it costs to fill our 20-gallon tank? Never mind--don't do the math, it's ghastly. We've usually been able to make it filling it up just once every two weeks, but I got home on mostly just vapors last night. And Phill has to fill up his little Honda all the time because he's commuting back and forth to Saint George five times a week, and sometimes six or seven if he has drill. That means we are spending at least $250.00 on gas every month [post-update: PHILL AND I RE-CALCULATED. IT'S ACTUALLY MORE LIKE $400.00!!!]. And when you consider that we could get into a rental in Saint George for only a little more than we're paying now, well....the logic is undeniable. This move is really the smartest (and most obvious) option. I don't want to. I don't want to pick up everything and move, and I don't want to worry about the kids adjusting, and I don't want to have to change utilities and go to a new ward and get a different calling and go to a different gym and find friends. Every fiber of my being is really annoyed that this is so necessary! I feel very rebellious and I find that I'm just balking at this every step of the way. I really don't want to.
But on the other hand....here are some pros I've imagined will make this easier:
-We do have two families down there who are some really good friends.
-I will be ridiculously tan. (And we'll just discount the dying-of-heat part)
-It will be an adventure. Hold on. I have to write that again because I don't believe it yet. It will be an adventure.
-We will save on gas.
-I might get steadier photography business down there.
-I can visit Cedar still.
-Shopping is very close by. (But this should also go on the cons list, because shopping close by is temptation close by and I get a little afraid of myself when I walk into Ross.)
-It's fun to arrange furniture and decorate a new place. (Provided that new place is nice and not something scary and weird and dysfunctional.)
Okay. My heart is aching a little bit and this post didn't make me feel as good as I had hoped it would. While I'm making my pros list, my cons list is growing ever-gargantuan in my mind. But because I am used to relocation as a way of life (Hi, I'm an Army man's daughter and I married an Army man), I will do what I've always done and plan, plan, plan until the sad sort of goes away. For at least a minute.
Nope. Not gone yet.