Friday, December 4, 2009

"Cuz every little gonna be alright...."

Here is what Phill tells me when I cry like I did last night, discouraged to the point of distraction:

One thing at a time.

He says it gently, with kindness in his eyes, and his hand going through my hair, and it works like a charm. Takes me from 10 to 1 in no time, every time.

So today, I am addressing one thing at a time. Right now, I am thinking about the distractions I have (cleaning house, running errands, paying bills) and the distractions I give myself (the computer.....the computer. THE COMPUTER). And I realize that much of the stretched-too-thin feelings I have could be dissipated if I focused on what needed to be done--when it needed to be done. Free myself from distraction, from the things that tend to get me feeling like I am unavailable.

So, sweet friends, today I am not going to look at Google Reader, Facebook, or my email until my children are in bed.

Maybe I'll be really extreme and even turn off the computer.


Shay Shay said...

I love that idea! i love you Rae!

Qait said...

It's hard, isn't it?
I turn off the monitor and sound pretty much every time I get up. It makes the computer less "there," less distracting.
I love you!

Cynthia said...

I like how you got on the COMPUTER to write this. :) Hehe... But I have the same problem...

Liz said...

Gentle Phill--treasure that about him, that he would be that way when you need it . .. I know you already do treasure that, but still, I had to say it , I guess . . . I treasure it too, for you.