Fuel

My awesome friend Jenn came to visit Thursday from SLC. We took the kids to the splash pad yesterday and ended up staying for almost three hours! But it was great to have her here, because I was starting to feel pretty lonely! And when I don't have sisters very nearby, it's nice to know I have a really close friend who can help ease the ache until somehow all five of us sisters will live close to each other again! (Hm. Probably not in the next twenty years will we all live within 100 miles of each other, just because of our husbands' various occupations. But a girl can dream, right?)On a related subject, the gas prices continue to soar, and I keep wondering if soon it's going to be cheaper for Jenn to fly to visit, instead of driving. I get really worked up about the gas prices, mostly because I feel helpless to change them, and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight. We've looked into converting our van to natural gas, and it would be $7,000. Sadly enough, it would be worth it, because it would balance out in the end! I don't know whether to just accept that it's going to keep being expensive to go anywhere at all, or to become angry to the point of some sort of more aggressive action. What kind of aggressive action, I have no idea! I just know that I feel rather imprisoned by the gas prices, and I don't think that's very American. I mean, we're #1 for consumerism and materialism and money, money, money, but aren't we supposed to be free, too? Shouldn't we feel that there is some way to fight the rising ceiling of gas prices? Am I alone in my thinking? It's really frustrating....we need fuel. And so we keep getting bled dry, because there is the demand.

Speaking of another kind of fuel, I am completely unmotivated. I should exercise, but I don't feel even 2% like actually moving past the Should to the Did....in fact, I fight against it. For instance, making brownies instead of exercising. That's definitely fighting it, huh?! And although I've been keeping the house at least minimally clean, I'm also completely unmotivated in this area. I don't know what my problem is! Usually after a few days, I'm absolutely losing my mind from it, and totally ready to tackle whatever mess there is. And usually I kind of enjoy keeping house, because it's satisfying to see the visual effects of my efforts. I know I just need to go ahead and clean, instead of waiting for motivation to kick in, but.....I just don't feel like it. :)

And on that note, I'm going to go do several things I don't feel like doing. This post has accomplished its purpose--I'm motivated, or at least slightly ashamed of myself, enough to go do something!